it may be that i lack an audience because i enjoy irreverence (and word play leading to repetitive redundancy and parenthetic distraction) so much i may appear to present as pretentious obscurantism... perhaps i am just misunderstood... but i do wander into wonder a lot and can easily be distracted by almost anything, even squirrels... and there are those profoundly meaningless questions that come to mind like why are brits afraid to smile... of course it is meaninglessness, like pretentious obscurantism (and redundant repetition), is in the mind of the beholder... everything is always a matter of perspective and opinion, after all... except what we know for sure, that is (whatever that is)... perhaps a search for obscurity... but don't mind me, i am still looking for empirical evidence of my own existence... or something like that...
are there no more foolish wisdoms
or is there simply no time?
and is that a foolish wisdom in itself?
silent foolish wisdom?
relative ends
from a movie that was a play
will someone care
sung by the members of a life support group
for people dying of aids
suddenly i am aware
that everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
it may be more obvious with cancer or aids
but we all share the same fear
of being alone at the end
old age is the final card that is played
if none of the others do it,
old age will, my friend
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
sometimes i want to end it all while i can
rather than be alone when i'm helpless at the end
sometimes i want to end it all, do you understand?
no one answers when i ask who will be the friend?
we're all asking
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
when the body fails me
when i can no longer care for myself
will i face nursing home dangers
will i be put out with the trash
will i be at the mercy of strangers
wiping my nose, my drool, my ass
will i lose my dignity
will someone care
for everyone is dying
and everyone is trying
to not be alone in the end
and everyone is wondering
the question is thundering
will someone be the friend
who will be there in the end
beheadings
understanding
are you afraid that if you actually realized that you could understand everything that maybe your head would fall off or something
all along
as if it's been here all along
and so it has, because it is, because you see, the here and now, was once before and this was not, but now it is, as if it's been here all along ...
foolish wisdom
everything in this world is so skewed by human judgments, by preconceptions of right and wrong, how can anyone have a clearly objective perspective or understanding of anything?
Open books
I'm a book...
sometimes fiction, mostly non-fiction...
2005-06-10
Aren't we all? ... only the percentages are different
sometimes fiction, mostly non-fiction...
2005-06-10
Aren't we all? ... only the percentages are different
Hope and towels
it's tough to lose a towel
when your eyes are full of soap
but it's worse to lose a friend
when your heart is full of hope
2005-06-25
:)
when your eyes are full of soap
but it's worse to lose a friend
when your heart is full of hope
2005-06-25
:)
Unfinished business
but I can't leave now, I have unfinished madness...
2005-06-08
Some of the titles of your posts are pure gems!
2005-06-08
Some of the titles of your posts are pure gems!
is the future now?
I sit here tapping the keys as if something grand is happening, as if all this time I spend putting my thoughts and observations into words has some real worth for the world... why else would I use my time and energy this way... why else would I upload the words...
how many thousands of us are doing this now and what does it mean?... are we by conscious choice all putting ourselves in cubicles, behind walls, behind screens and words, distant and apart?... is this the direction our species is heading?... will this be the social life of the future?... is the future now?...
I grew tired of the club scene, the drinking, the drugs, the dress up and put on the show... though sometimes the meaningless fun and ego show was worth it, all in all it was more of a waste of time and money than fun... I did not want to work hard to make money just to spend the money on going out to try to impress someone, to try to meet someone...
real has to start with real, not with pretense...
2005-05-29
Hmmm ... deep thoughts ... real thoughts ...
how many thousands of us are doing this now and what does it mean?... are we by conscious choice all putting ourselves in cubicles, behind walls, behind screens and words, distant and apart?... is this the direction our species is heading?... will this be the social life of the future?... is the future now?...
I grew tired of the club scene, the drinking, the drugs, the dress up and put on the show... though sometimes the meaningless fun and ego show was worth it, all in all it was more of a waste of time and money than fun... I did not want to work hard to make money just to spend the money on going out to try to impress someone, to try to meet someone...
real has to start with real, not with pretense...
2005-05-29
Hmmm ... deep thoughts ... real thoughts ...
Mindful tracks ...
... it would be great for me to wake up enough to connect with some musicians and the festival people and maybe even get involved in putting the shows together like I was going to do way back in 2000 when I came back to Orlando to start life over...
obviously I did not take the fast track...
2005-05-19
Gotta love a mind that has such an innate sense of comedic timing! It's not easy being funny ... or green for that matter
obviously I did not take the fast track...
2005-05-19
Gotta love a mind that has such an innate sense of comedic timing! It's not easy being funny ... or green for that matter
Eagles, condoms and lustfilled love
GOVERNMENT ANNOUNCEMENT:
The government today announced that it is changing its emblem from an Eagle to a CONDOM because it more accurately reflects the government's political stance.
A condom allows for inflation, halts production, destroys the next generation, protects a bunch of pricks, and gives you a sense of security while you're actually being screwed.
2005-05-13
Need I explain why I am in love with your brain?
The government today announced that it is changing its emblem from an Eagle to a CONDOM because it more accurately reflects the government's political stance.
A condom allows for inflation, halts production, destroys the next generation, protects a bunch of pricks, and gives you a sense of security while you're actually being screwed.
2005-05-13
Need I explain why I am in love with your brain?
Anybody in there?
sometimes I wonder if I spend too much time writing, too much time online, too much time alone, too much time in my mind... and then I remember that I am not alone in my mind
2005-05-09
absolutely delicious!
2005-05-09
absolutely delicious!
Q & A
are you thinking?... I think so
are you feeling?... more today than yesterday
are you out there?... I'm here which is probably there
are you here?... how can I be here if you're there ... but I'm here and you're there
are you drinking?... water, life, tears
are you dealing?... as well as I can at this moment
are you aware?... I'm thinking I'm aware is that the same thing?
do you care?... I care about a lot of things ... is that enough?
what's the story?... morning glory
what's the answer?... why not?
what's the message you must tell?... I am, I was, I saw, I cried, I laughed, I smiled, I tried
is it heaven?... and hell
is it worthless?... nothing's worthless
is it magic?... everything is magical from at least one perspective
will it sell?... I've sold it to myself so yes ...
2005-04-14
are you feeling?... more today than yesterday
are you out there?... I'm here which is probably there
are you here?... how can I be here if you're there ... but I'm here and you're there
are you drinking?... water, life, tears
are you dealing?... as well as I can at this moment
are you aware?... I'm thinking I'm aware is that the same thing?
do you care?... I care about a lot of things ... is that enough?
what's the story?... morning glory
what's the answer?... why not?
what's the message you must tell?... I am, I was, I saw, I cried, I laughed, I smiled, I tried
is it heaven?... and hell
is it worthless?... nothing's worthless
is it magic?... everything is magical from at least one perspective
will it sell?... I've sold it to myself so yes ...
2005-04-14
Rivers run
it seems to me we all flow in the same way, creating or finding different rivers, trying to believe our rivers are better than other rivers, forgetting we all empty into the same sea...
2005-04-14
beautiful
2005-04-14
beautiful
Cool???
there are times when I get so excited that whatever cool I might have simply slides off like I'm rubber and cool is water if you know what I mean...
2005-03-08
sorry if this hurts or stings ... here's a band-aid and a kiss for the boo-boo just in case ... but seriously ... you? ... cool? ... come on ...
2005-03-08
sorry if this hurts or stings ... here's a band-aid and a kiss for the boo-boo just in case ... but seriously ... you? ... cool? ... come on ...
emo-memories
timeless ideas... timeless emotions... wonderful, beautiful, sometimes painful, but impersonal... ideas are impersonal and emotions are illusions, for when we look around we are not seeing each other, we are not sharing the moments, the experience, each other... we read and feel the memories and emotions within us...
2005-01-02
2005-01-02
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